is it really over?

maybe some years later we will meet again ...just like the others did or maybe not

maybe then also you will be the same shit as you are now. maybe then also you won't feel anything or whatever I'm just overthinking and procrastinating.

but all of my school childish love came back at some point of time maybe many years had passed and all of them said sorry for breaking up with me, I guess that's just a saying none of them meant it or whatsoever.

 I guess I will be long gone by then or maybe i will still have a place for you in my heart. bcz its not very easy for me to move on and i guess i did what was best for the both of us.

you will never admit your wrong doings or your mind games and manipulations bcz you are made like that. its me who was the bait and had to suffer all along and had to be the scape goat and bear with all insecurities and heart break.

Just like you said life doesn't stop for anyone and i hope you fall in love with someone who loves you the same 

i never really understood you because you never tried opening up to me and maybe i couldn't make you feel enough secure 

god knows who's fault it is 

you brought me down so good that now i cannot even stand up and decide what i actually want for my life. You broke me so bad that I cannot see myself without you and you are all set and ready to go and going on trip with your friends and having fun never ever remembering me .

bcz you never loved that's what it is ...you wanted the attention that I gave you, you wanted me to care for you with nothing in return and silly me thought it was love.

how dumb am I?

I wanted to grow with you and be successful and happy with you , maybe a little bit of assurance sometimes , who am I telling...... you never listened to any of my words.

I guess my ranting and complaining will never be over because I lost 3years of my life on you and how am I supposed to get that back?  I just wish i never see you again.